I knew the college talk was gonna come up sooner or later but I didn’t think it was gonna start off like that or end like that either. You shocked me with more than I can handle tonight and it’s killing me. I still don’t understand where you’re coming from with your decision for summer but there’s nothing I can do about it except let it happen. I promised you I wouldn’t cry but I couldn’t help it this time, I woke up and tears were just pouring down my face and they won’t stop. I knew this was going to be hard but I didn’t think it was gonna be this difficult. You’re happiness is more important to me than mine which is why I’m trying to tell myself this is okay. Knowing that as each day passes by is one say closer to the end, hurts more than anything in the world. I don’t think you’ll ever understand where I’m coming from no matter how much you say you do. I hope you’re serious about what you say about us, it’s the only thing that’s getting me through this. I wish there was something to help avoid this but I know there’s not. Hopefully everything will be the same up until the day, but I really doubt it. I’ll always be here and I’ll always love you. See you later babe